2025 Positionality Statement

TW: mention of su*c*de, trauma, houselessness, DV/SA, colonization, racism, oppression

Identity and Background
I am a nonbinary queer author, pagan, and sex worker. My pronouns are they/she/fae. I grew up LDS (Mormon) for 23 years and was married in the temple and later had my records removed from the church.
My experiences and unconscious biases are shaped by the privileges and opportunities I have experienced as a white-passing, woman-passing, straight-sized, able-bodied person.

Cultural Heritage and Duality
I grew up with a brown father and a white mother in an LDS Christian household, navigating a predominantly Mexican and Asian elementary school community while being white-passing. While my family did not celebrate Mexican-American culture, I have spent most of my life in close proximity to it, forming personal and professional relationships with many Mexican and Mexican-American individuals. This experience frequently required me to rely on Spanish for communication in the workplace.
My Mexican and Spanish heritage was erased through assimilation, while my Scandinavian roots were celebrated within a colonial, Christian narrative. This duality of erasure and lived experience has profoundly shaped my perspective on the impacts of colonization.

Contrasting Experiences of Privilege 
I grew up affluent in an upper-middle-class suburban neighborhood in the Bay Area. As a teen, I lived on a rural ranch in an LDS-dominated community (98% Mormon). However, I later experienced poverty and houselessness during early adulthood. These contrasting experiences have profoundly shaped my perspective on privilege and survival.

Neurodivergence and Disability
I have been clinically diagnosed with Premenstrual Dysphoric Disorder (PMDD), which has severely impacted my ability to hold typical jobs and relationships. I also live with clinically diagnosed Complex Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (C-PTSD), for which I have worked with an ADA trained service animal for the last seven years. My service animal assists me with daily tasks and triggering events, helping me navigate the world.
Although I do not have a clinical diagnosis of autism, I experience sensory overstimulation and social processing challenges that overlap with autistic traits. I often rely on autism-informed strategies to better manage daily life. In addition, chronic stress and fatigue compound the effects of my conditions, shaping how I move through the world.
Because I often appear able-bodied, I have faced disbelief, harassment, and discrimination- especially when flying, traveling, shopping, or eating at restaurants with my service animal. These experiences have deepened my awareness of the barriers faced by people with invisible disabilities and strengthened my commitment to advocacy and representation.

Trauma and Healing Journey
I am three times divorced and a survivor of domestic violence, sexual assault, mental illness, conversion therapy, alcoholism, and suicide attempts. I continue to navigate healing from these deeply rooted traumas and C-PTSD. Journaling has provided a space for reflection and self-expression, while witchcraft and nature have offered me solace and a deeper connection to the world around me. Additionally, therapy has been invaluable in helping me process my experiences and develop healthier coping strategies.

Religious Influence and Gender Dysphoria
As an ex-Mormon, I’ve had to unlearn patriarchal structures that erased my sexuality and gender, realizing how deeply these systems shaped my identity and worldview. These structures enforced strict gender roles and heteronormativity.
For three years, I was married to a gay man in an LDS/Mormon temple marriage- an experience that profoundly shaped my understanding of both gender and desire. In that relationship, I first realized I was non-monogamous. I also discovered how deeply I felt the need to strap down my chest and minimize the features of my body marked as female, pretending they didn’t exist, while presenting masculinity in order to feel desirable to him. At the time, I didn’t understand what this meant- but I was beginning to glimpse my trans identity. What I was really experiencing was gender dysphoria, unfolding alongside a marriage where my assigned sex at birth was not desirable, and my gender awakening began to take shape in that tension. That marriage revealed truths about myself that I could no longer hide, even within the constraints of religion and community.
I identify as ethically non-monogamous and have been practicing this relationship format for over six years. Non-monogamy has given me space to redefine intimacy, family, and love outside of patriarchal structures, and to embrace connections that honor my truth. I experienced religious, familial, and community traumas, and loss of home when I left this establishment. I am still healing these wounds, and I am grateful for the LDS people in my later adulthood who have loved and embraced me for who I am, reminding me that love and acceptance can transcend the structures I’ve left behind.

Experiences as a Sex Worker
I have experienced social oppression and systematic rejection and erasure as a sex worker. I have participated in sex work out of desperation for survival, but also as a self-designated choice that has provided personal enrichment. I have briefly experienced exploitation in sex work, though the majority of my work has been self-designated. I have experienced oppression by banking institutions which have erased and denied my legitimacy as a licensed sex worker at a legal brothel and tax-paying citizen. These multifaceted experiences have deepened my understanding of the intersectionality of gender erasure, the impacts of patriarchy, and the resilience of those I work alongside from marginalized backgrounds within the sex work industry.

Impact on Writing and Storytelling
These experiences have enriched my writing, allowing me to approach taboo topics with empathy and nuance, reflecting voices of those often erased from mainstream narratives.

Educational and Professional Background
In my youth, I attended a public elementary school, with a year in a homeschool co-op. My teen years were mixed in a private LDS school, homeschooled, co-ops, and in public schools. I was a cosmetologist for 10 years, and have been a sex worker for 15 years. I did not complete formal education at a university, but I did study business for several years at WGU before dropping out due to financial circumstances. As of 2025, I am a TEDA trained Pro-Domme.

Interests and Passions
Some of my special interests include animals, writing, human psychology, sex, taboos, herbalism, witchcraft, modeling, design, cooking, baking, and dancing.

Commitment to Social Justice
I am committed to donating a portion of all book proceeds to reparations within marginalized communities and eco-conservation including BIPOC communities, LGBTQIA+ communities, and intersectional environmentalism.

My journey has been shaped by contradictions- privilege and marginalization, erasure and reclamation, pain and resilience. These experiences inform my writing and my voice, helping me create stories that resist conformity and embrace the complexity of human identity. I remain committed to growing, listening, and using my platform as an author to amplify representation, spark dialogue, and contribute to a more just and compassionate world.  //EN 8/25